Sunday, September 1, 2013

Finding Neverland


Travel leaves marks on your memory, on your consciousness, on your heart, and on your body. You take something with you.  Hopefully, you leave something good behind.”

-Anthony Bourdain.  

# Traveller confession # 1:
 I am a stereotypical traveller who had Ladakh on my to-do lists for eons. I perused tons of travel magazines and websites, drawing out the ultimate travel plan with friends, for the millionth time, only to see it flop, again. I romanticized my journey, a vivid picture in my mind’s eye, with a backpack and DSLR in tow. I practiced my pose for the monumental photograph on Khardung La,colourful prayer flags fluttering in the background and the sun bouncing off the snow. It was perfect. In June 2013,when I finally did set foot in Ladakh,’ little Tibet’ as its fondly described, my stomach churned and the chilly wind caused my heart to tremble. Nothing can ever prepare you for the experience in Ladakh I realized.

 As a novice traveller, it would be expected of me to describe Ladakh, one of the biggest, but sparsely populated provinces of Jammu and Kashmir in many superlatives. Breathtaking, mind-blowing and beautiful are some that come to mind. But being a tourist who visited it for only 8 days I run the risk of noticing only the slick and shallow surface and not the truth beneath. I am too pre-occupied clicking pictures of the snow and desperately hunting for momos. Yet it’s the aura of the place, the subduing power of nature that makes every visitor, be it a tourist or a seasoned army jawaan to want to tell his Ladakh story. Thereby here is mine.    

The town of Leh
While many would recommend the arduous 29-hour journey from Delhi to Leh, as a way to ease oneself through the difficult terrain and also breathe in it’s splendor, we decided to take the easier option of flying in.  As the flight ascended from Delhi, the smog and skyscraper filled skyline dramatically metamorphosed into snow capped peaks that looked like little dollops of Vanilla ice cream. Mountains, clouds, and snow stretched out for miles, and I had my first insight; that I was now in the protection and the complete mercy of the gigantic Himalayas. 

The small and quaint Leh airport cut a very scenic picture. It’s thick eclectic population and curious mix of Buddhism and strong military presence; one of the many paradoxes of Ladakh struck me first. Huge billboards welcomed the visitor with a gentle admonishment about the possible onset of Altitude Sickness. “Don’t exert too much, just sleep. But don’t sleep too much also,” mumbled our driver as he drove us to our abode for the next few days,‘Hotel Asia’. “Don’t have a bath today madam. Your body need to get used to the place,” the manager now joined in warning us. Reading the bewildered expressions on our faces he then rambled for the next five minutes giving a crash course; which sounded almost Zen-like, on the importance of ‘just being’ and acclimatizing to the conditions. 

 Traveller confession #2
Humility. Pack it with you. Consume lots of it. I have been victim to cruel travel sickness on numerous occasions. Thus having read tons of literature on altitude sickness, I packed a bag, short of being called a mini pharmacy with packets of glucose and dry fruits to fuel the body and a list of dos and don’t. Upon arrival, as expected altitude sickness claimed its first victim; surprisingly the seemingly robust and athletic husband. His face shrunk, and his body dwindled to a bout of vomiting. The man who lived amongst and climbed the ‘Rockies’ for years, who was supremely confident of being unaffected fell prey, while the sickly doctor’s child that I was sat beside massaging his back, with a smirk. The dearth of oxygen, the elixir of life, (something that we take for granted) is a very prominent and telling sign in Ladakh. Climbing five stairs left me panting. Headaches were frequent and piercing. Knees grew weak and an uneasy discomfort rumbled in the stomach. Sudden pangs of anxiety about growing old and falling sick kept me awake. “ Don’t panic, you will only use up more oxygen” had joked the friendly and mild mannered waiter while helping us with our luggage. “Stay calm and breathe in”. He sounded like one of those ‘keep calm ‘posters. We lapped up the delicious and hot lunch and retired early to bed. “The human body is a miracle, and should never be underestimated," I said to myself the next day. My fragile and weary body had recalibrated itself to the paucity in oxygen and I was ready for our adventure. It's good to be prepared, but no amount of preparation can foresee what is to beckon in Ladakh. Be modest and be ready.

Shanti Stupa,Leh
 Ladakh has been touted as a tourism hot spot in the recent years. However its meteoric rise to this status is not a result of government propagation or benevolence but due to a movie that scorched 100 crores n the box office,’3 Idiots’. Prior to the release of the movie the tourists were largely Europeans with a streak of adventure, interest in Buddhism and oblivious to military and insurgent activity in Jammu and Kashmir. Thanks to the climax sequence of ‘ 3 Idiots’ with Aamir Khan flying a kite near a jaw droppingly beautiful lake and a Kareena Kapoor riding towards him in all her wedding finery, Ladakh had been put back on the map. Since then, the locals informed us that there has been a steady influx of domestic tourists. “We used to feel sad that our country people were ignorant of this place, “ said a shopkeeper.  The truth is bitter and manifested itself when were introduced as “Indians” wherever went. The recent downward trends in the world economy and subsequent spiraling air tickets are a cause for concern again. “ It’s cheaper to fly to London than to Ladakh,” chuckled Tashi, our extremely affable driver and companion for the next eight days.  


Dotted with monasteries and prayer wheels every two kilometers, Ladakh is the seat of Buddhism. Buddha statues punctuated every street corner and incredibly photogenic prayer flags, (meant to ward off evil) uniformly decorated every building in the province. Buddhism, as a way of life seemed unobtrusive and extremely inclusive, with a pronounced emphasis on education; one of the very admirable facets of the religion. Tara, the female incarnate of Buddha was revered more than Siddhartha himself and every Buddhist shrine we visited had a school attached, that encouraged tourists to take a tour. The little boys in their maroon and yellow robes and matching indigenous 'red crocs' were trained to welcome their visitors with refreshing black tea and answers to all possible questions about their school and the education system. While some schools like ‘The Druck White Lotus’ has already received celebrity attention and invitations for volunteering, thanks to ‘3 idiots’ once again, there were numerous smaller institutions that required both monetary and volunteer help. Some of the boys enamored by the gadgets and typical tourist like excitement and ignorance that we exuded offered to take us to their classrooms. At the end of the tour they were ready with their poses for the eventual photographs with the 'exotic natives’, a habit perhaps acquired by incessant requests.

Though aptly christened Little Tibet, my quest for eating thukpas and dim sums came to a grinding a halt when the hotel manager later that day informed us that we would be served only North Indian food, but according to our palette and on request. A few car journeys later, Tashi, who often moonlighted as our tour guide explained the reason behind our disappointment. Fearing possible violence, capture and persecution, most Tibetans had fled down to the other states and safer parts of the country. Such an irony that to eat Tibetan food we would have to go back to where we came from, Delhi. 

 Tall, muscular, floppy hair, flashy local 'ray-ban' permanently perched on the bridges of his nose, and an insatiable capacity for enthusiasm, Tashi won over everybody; passerby’s, tourists, roadside vendors and certainly pretty Ladakh girls with his high pitched “Juley, Juley”. Juley is 'hello’ in Ladakhi and as per custom must be uttered twice in succession. The people of Ladakh, with their sun burnt rose-tinted cheeks had an overall sunny disposition and were very amicable. Every question and every pesky doubt was welcomed with a smile and a battery of stories. Tashi hailed from a small village in interior Ladakh and like many others came to Leh to work as a contract driver during the peak season (June-Oct). Post October, when the entire region shut down due to the intense and paralyzing winter, most people migrated to Delhi and Himachal Pradesh to make a living while others kept themselves busy by volunteering with the Army.  The Army performed the rescue act during the next 6 months by airdropping food five times a day. The admiration and respect for the Indian Army was evident amongst the people of Ladakh whenever they spoke. Army checkpoints at regular injunctions provided relief to the tourists as well by offering medical aid and oxygen handys around the clock. We could not leave Ladakh without our chests swelling in pride for our army personnel.  

Lamayuru:
 The first of our long road-trips began with the drive to Lamayuru. Lamayuru in Tibetan meant 'moonscape’ and stayed true to its name. The landscape was sandy, with undulating golden hillocks and crater like projections that formed a stark contrast to the clear blue sky. Being a cold desert, the mornings were dry and the sunlight harsh; making our eyes squint and develop a throbbing headache that I wanted to sleep over. (it was almost impossible to travel in Ladakh without a pair of sunglasses).Sweat shirts and fancy winter wear made an appearance only in the night.
The Indus
 An icy blue river, lucent and voluminous meandered along a rocky pathway, following us through the entire drive. Observing the sense of awe on my face, Tashi in a rather perfunctory manner announced that it was the 'Indus’. 

The Indus!!From squiggling a tiny blue line during a geography exam to actually witnessing the origin of the river on whose bed our civilization took root and has given India it's name, was a moment that I was left painfully bereft of any adjectives to describe how I felt. Sensing my epiphany Tashi stopped the car at the next bend and jumped out. He urged us to follow him as he ran down the slope towards the river.  The water was pristine and freezing cold. While some of us sat on the rocks immersed in silent reflection, the others threw pebbles and watched them skid off the surface of the water.  Before leaving, I made sure I collected few pebbles, softened by years of river erosion. These were memorabilia that I would cherish forever. “ We can do river rafting madam,” Tashi said, joyous with the enthusiasm we had exhibited. Later that evening we did raft through the river with several other families. It was exhilarating, despite the noisy kids; the cool breeze ruffling the hair and water currents pulling us rookie rafters hither and thither. But nothing could compete with the quiet moments spent on the banks of the Indus, feet wading in the ice-cold water. It felt like a subliminal connect with the bygones.



Lamayuru Moonsacpe
Five hours later, destination Lamayuru arrived. Lamayuru was the quintessential Himalayan village, nestled in the slopes of a picturesque valley, uninhabited and detached from any form of urban connect. The forced digital detox was a blessing as we sat by the fire, warming our fingers with teacups and staring into space. Sleep came early and instantly. 

 Khardung-La
Next on the itinerary was the much-recommended Khardung-la, the highest motorable pass in the world. We braced ourselves for the long and impending journey. What befell was a terribly rocky and steep drive up the mountains with a fast diminishing oxygen supply and dipping temperature. We could neither sit nor sleep through the dizziness thanks to the road or the lack of one. As the snow came closer, we added layers to our clothing. Perched at the tip, sitting pretty, was a huge bright signage, partially covered by clean, soft snow that read ' Welcome to Khardung la, you are now 18'0000 feet above sea-level.’ That sight called for some frenzied picture taking! Its customary to warm our stomachs with some mouth-watering, piping hot maggi, at the highest restaurant in the world they said, and we did. Boy, that was amazing.

Traveller confession #3
Visiting Ladakh is not like visiting the Niagara Falls, a wonder that you admire from a safe distance, as a mute spectator, marveling at the miracle that nature and casually move on. At Ladakh, you are in her territory; you are but a tiny part in her mighty ecosystem, a speck in her existence. She serenades you and yet subdues you. You feel small, insignificant and powerless. Being the city dweller, I craved for the straight roads, the beauty of its flatness and how kind it was to my back. Weary of hours and hours of travel there were days when I dreamt of my bed and my bathroom. I longed for a giant crane that would pick me up from Leh and airdrop me into my little home in Bangalore, where I could crawl under the contours of my quilt and sleep forever. I, the slave of the Internet longed for the familiar pattering of my keyboard and the red notifications on my phone. There were days when I felt lost and wanted to be found. 

  Pangong Lake
Soon the never-ending stretches of sandy hillocks with grooves of melted snow set against cloudless skies got monotonous. Just when we were longing for a distraction, a bright drop of teal emerged from the edge of the horizon. Blue in its truest form and purest hue; arose the infamous Pangong Lake. Pangong Lake formed the backdrop for the climax sequence in ‘3 Idiots’ where the friends discover Aamir Khan as the Tibetan ‘Phunsukh Wangdoo’. Shared between India (20%) and China (80%) the massive expanse of a lake seemed to contain every shade of blue and is a photographer's muse. International boundaries blurred and made no sense as we sat mesmerized by the surreal and the incredibly powerful and calming influence of the water. Tents were pitched out for us to stay, replete with all the basic amenities and an excellent plumbing system in place. The night was spent snuggled beneath several folds of woolen blankets even as winds threatened to blow the tents away. 

 Traveller Confession # 4
India may be the largest democracy in the world. We may have withstood several trials of conflict and adversity. We may take pride in our unity despite the diversity. However a moment of truth dawns when we witness the great two: Cricket and Bollywood and its indomitable power and ability to bind people.

Great conversation starters, any discussion about cricket and Bollywood made people happy, share anecdotes and discuss their views feverishly. Tashi sang all the songs on radio verbatim and insisted on taking us on an extensive tour of all the sites where 'Jab tak hai jaan' was shot, and seemed eternally grateful to the makers of '3 Idiots'. Katrina Kaif was his dream girl and he boasted of the lone theatre that Leh had. Before leaving he made sure he copied the Bollywood song collection from our iPods. With Bollywood around, the other passion of India can certainly not be far behind.

170 kms across another mountain range and we were famished and sleepy. But just as we were driving past a suspension bridge, spots of bright yellow flickered at the distance. A cricket match was in progress. Eleven 'No 7 jersey clad Dhoni’s' were battling it out with eleven other KKR lookalikes at 12,000 feet above sea level, in the middle of the Karakoram Range! We the three beleaguered CSK fans were ecstatic. After talking to a few locals, we concluded that Ladakh is a haven of Dhoni fans. They adored the small town boy turned world icon and confessed that they not only revered his helicopter shot and cool head but wanted to emulate his road to success. It was our moment of pride, CSK has fans from Kashmir to Kanyakumari we rejoiced.  

An overnight stay at Nubra Valley, a pit stop at an Army museum and several walks through the Leh markets later it was time to bid adieu. As the trip progressed Tashi evolved into a friend. He dropped us back at the Leh Airport with promises to visit us and have a plate of Idly and sambhar whenever he made his dream trip down south.  The elusive trip to Ladakh was over. It was hard to believe.

Traveller Confession # 5
Walking through the cobbled pathways, scanning for beaded Tibetan jewellery in the neighborhood flea markets, gulping a cup of masala chai, and gazing at the towering Himalayas, watching little children in sweaters pick apricots off the sidewalk, playing with the unusually furry dogs; feeling the wind dabbing your face with freshness and early morning chill.

 Traversing across Ladakh is an uplifting experience both literally and figuratively. You understand your body. You appreciate it, measure its constraints and push your boundaries. You learn to live with nature. Perhaps the dearth of communication and endless open space make it easy for the mind to ponder and mediate on the simplicity of life. Ladakh is not just a check mark on a 'to-do' list to be stashed away ,or a flashy Facebook upload, but valuable life lesson. This travel is not always pretty, always comfortable. It hurts. It's overpowering. But that’s okay. It’s a journey that changes you. 

There is no such place as far away.
















The Parable of a Wet Nose and a Waggy Tail


4pm. The stomach rumbles.  A bag laden with books precariously poised tug at the shoulders. The haggle with the auto wallah drains the remaining morsel of energy or enthusiasm.  A flight of stairs later, a key turns in a lock…
A gargantuan mass of golden fur comes bounding, knocking everything down in the vicinity. Leo. Every single day of the week.

Leo is our 2-year-old Golden retriever, blissfully trapped in a time bubble. He still loves chasing his tail on a boring Tuesday afternoon. He has no inkling of his bulging belly or its ability to squat and squash the neighbor’s cat. He probably doesn’t care. Given a choice and if he does stumble on an opportunity, he would much rather squeeze his bum into my fleshy albeit uncomfortable lap. He would dance around me in happy circles; prance around the house in wild abandon, mock fight with the Husband and sleep like a child. He still believes that he is a puppy. You can always grow big but you needn’t grow up he seems to say. At times he makes life look too simple and too easy.

Where does get all the energy from? I wonder. It must be the seven hours of beauty sleep that he gets while I am away at work, or the gallons of milk he slurps in a hurry. His energy is so infectious that it rubs on to anyone who encounters him, even briefly. It must require some talent to turn my scowl into a more endearing smile and mollycoddle even as I am being torn by an urge to fling myself on the nearest sofa and slip into coma. He would trot around me from room to room, as I slipped into something comfortable, grabbed a bite, made some tea and would sleep on the bathroom mat while I daydreamed in the loo.  When I was too preoccupied to throw the ball that he clutched in his mouth he would whine and whimper. And just then the elusive fly would appear and Leo would tear around the house chasing after it. It would irritate, entertain and eventually tire him out. However in five minutes, while I sat plodding away in front of the computer, eyebrows knitted in concentration, I would catch a glimpse of the golden tail wafting behind the table, approaching me like a shark’s fin. 

We got Leo one day in January, two months into our marriage, almost on a whim. A dog was certainly part of our growing old plans. But when exactly and how soon were questions that we probably didn’t deliberate enough. But I was in between jobs and the moment seemed right. Amongst the three puppies that we saw, quite cinematically, he made the last and of course the grand appearance. He had a coat like his mother’s, golden brown and lustrous. Unlike his ‘alpha- male’ brother who nibbled on my fingers and peed on the Husband or his other brother who curled himself into a ball under the sofa, despising us for gate crashing his siesta, Leo at first sight was nonchalant. He wagged his tail; hovered around briefly, and scampered away, ignoring the pair of adults who waited for a sign, a jump on our laps perhaps, to christen him as the chosen one. He was more interested in the ball of newspaper near the TV stand.

Thus Leo’s life journey symbolically began as he drove with us from Chennai to Bangalore, snuggled into the folds of his new maroon bed.
The charming little puppy that he was, Leo managed to get the neighbors to croon their ‘awws’ and ‘choc chweets” regularly. He basked in their attention and doused them with licks in return. However the honeymoon period was soon over. I woke up every morning to the smell of damp pillows and rooms strewn with newspapers. He littered the rooms with the same wild abandon. I started mopping the floors before brushing my teeth.

And then one fine day, almost predictably, I had my momentary lapse of reason and broke into a bucket of tears.” I don’t think I can handle this,” I sobbed. I started questioning my decision. “ A dog is a lot of responsibility,” my mother’s voice bellowed in my head. “ It will be good training for me, “I had rationalized with her then. Now, given my uncanny ability to over analyze and hyperventilate, I started doubting my credentials and my ‘mothering skills’. It was time for the Husband to step in and give his rapid-fire pep talk, which he did very effectively as always, by patiently sugarcoating my fears.  We covered the entire room with newspapers and a chalked up a plan to toilet train little Leo. I worked diligently, following the strategy with religious perfection and armed with a ‘poop-scoop’.

Sometimes when we ignore the little things, we realize how easy life becomes and how fast the seemingly insurmountable problems whizz past us.  Today I do not remember the day when Leo stopped being a toddler, but these are the days when I long for those days, when he was small enough to be carried around. Leo grew up too soon! He was a favorite with the family, effortlessly serenading everyone from our 89-year-old grandfather to my 3-year-old niece. Every abroad visit brought more toys for him than chocolates for us.  Every guest to the house was received with his ceremonial and rapturous welcomes that sent some in a tizzy and some kinder souls to think of reaching the nearest Animal Rescue Board, thinking that this poor dog was deprived of any semblance of human contact. He didn’t spare anybody, not the apathetic uncle, not even my terrified best friend. He had his way of gently clawing his way into their hearts and once in, settling in there for good. It was almost as though it was an unsaid and unwritten rule to adore him and he made sure everyone followed it to the hilt.

“Dogs have no self respect; they do not have a mind of their own” is every cat lover’s tagline.  Leo has a mind that would put any self-respecting human being to shame. Our dear canine friend is a stickler for perfection. He likes to have his meals on time. Even more importantly he likes to go to bed at sharp 10: 30 pm, as if he has a horrible boss, an unreasonable client or a spate of meetings to attend to the next day. And if you did disturb his slumber with some loud chitchatting or some TV watching, he would treat you with some high quality and high decibel barking for 10 whole minutes. Or he would park himself on you, till you become breathless and decide you would catch up on some sleep as well.
 
Leo has his own bed and his basket of toys that he detests sharing with anyone and putting all the popular theories and older dogs to shame, will wag his tail only when he wants to. Gone are the good old days when a dog used to wag its tail even if you thought of being nice to it. You can smother him with affection, dole out as many biscuits as you want and tickle his belly. But his majesty, true to his name will wag his tail and lend himself to some canoodling only when he is in a mood and when he deems fit. If this isn’t self-respect I don’t know what is!

However certain ‘Dog Ethics’ never ever change. Like all dogs, Leo too has only true love in his life; food. A true foodie he likes to taste everything, from the toilet brush to gourmet cupcakes. Of course being the very frank friend, if he doesn’t think too highly of your ‘continent- like -shaped phulkas’ he will waste no time in spitting it out with the same fervor with which he gobbled it.  Leo loves mangoes, pappad and cake, but ice cream tops the list. With ice cream his animal nature makes a comeback. He could kill for those scoops of Vanilla.

Interestingly, our little Benjamin Button’s bad behavior grew exponentially to his size. The adorable puppy, who used to patiently wait in his bed for me to wake up and take him for a walk, with ‘maturity’, now insists on knocking on the door relentlessly till one of us succumb to irritation and open. Silence, and some peaceful sleep would engulf the next half an hour till one of us again wakes up, this time to the nudges from his soft backside, that slowly encroaches into the bed, creating more room for him to sleep. A loud scream and a whack later he slumps to the floor with a sad face.

Part of being a parent, and perhaps the most worrisome part is not knowing what your child is thinking.  I have seen several parents stress themselves over the mysterious minds that their children are. On the contrary dogs are sublimely happy to tell you how they are feeling and want to be part of every little thing  you do.  This attention seeker would sandwich himself between us during every serious conversation. He would jump on us animatedly when we argued and when we danced like a bunch of fools for ‘Just Dance’ on Kinect he isn’t embarrassed and joins in the party. If only having and rearing a child was this easy!


Who is Leo? Why Leo? I sometimes philosophize. Spoilt brat?  His Good karma? Excellent training for future parenthood? I will never know.
 
There is a bar of chocolate lying by the laptop as I type this. At the corner of my eye sits a droopy face, floppy ears and marble eyes, pouting. Staring down the bridge of his nose, drool dribbling down; he waits; hoping his cuteness would melt this mean lady.

 And it does.

For the hundredth time.

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Shift (her) Focus

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It all started with Draupadi’s laughter.
Duryodhan fell into a pond, mistaking it to be the marble floors of her palace of illusions.
She laughed. He was embarrassed. He wanted to teach her a lesson.
Thus it all began.


December 16th 2012 a day that India will hopefully never forget. The Delhi Gang Rape and the traumatic marathon media coverage that ensued got me thinking about Draupadi’s laugh. Beyond the lack of safety in the capital, lack of law enforcement, sexual repression and crimes against women,the rape was yet another assertion of patriarchy and manhood. “She, a woman, who is inferior to me insulted me, hence I shall put her in her place,” they seem to have said. The young brave heart’s defiance angered and instigated the perpetrators even more. According to them they were merely setting the balance right. How can a woman be gallivanting on the streets of Delhi with a man alone? How dare she talk back to me? It’s the same reason why a lone woman riding a scooter or a driving a car gets followed and taunted. Women are now usurping successfully what are traditionally considered as male domains, and this is causing a flutter

The recent shootout in Denver, when a young man dressed as the infamous ‘Joker’ trooped into a multiplex and gunned own random public waiting for the screening of’ The Dark Knight Rises’, brings up a pertinent case. Why is the tendency to emulate socially deviant or ‘negative ‘ behavior more prevalent than impersonation of the ‘hero’? The paradox is bewildering. The hero has the looks, gets the ravishing heroine and is venerated by the society for his exploits. Yet we find more Jokers’ and schoolboys inspired by ‘Agneepath’ slitting the throats of their teachers than men in capes running around saving humanity and averting catastrophes.

The many layered and complicated narrative of the Mahabharata has been the backbone of Indian ethos. Stories from the epic have been recounted to instill morals, and have served as bedtime stories about friendship, duty and definitions of good and bad. At times it has also been used to ingrain patriarchy.  Most forms of storytelling; the epics, nursery rhymes or one of our biggest industries and most effective form of storytelling today, films, contain seeds of patriarchy. These messages are subconsciously embedded in the minds of both boys and girls thus rooting gender stereotypes. Most often people are oblivious to the gender discrimination that permeates through their everyday actions. When heinous crimes such as the Delhi Gang rape shake the country one cannot help but wonder if our popular culture had anything to do with it.
The debate on whether life imitates art or vice versa maybe an age old one, but it’s illogical to view the two as separate entities.  Social milieu and popular culture mirror each other; they are manifestations of each other, and if negligent, they may do more harm than good.

Films, the most pervasive and influential form of popular culture today, systematically and subliminally have drilled patriarchal  ‘values’ into the average Indian, through the sermons of our favorite actors. Rajinikanth, who spells out the dos and don’ts and conduct of behavior for women, takes it upon himself to domesticate women who rebel, and ‘behave like a man’. He makes sure that they are put in their place by the greatest punishment that they can get, that of unrequited love. The ladies who do manage to win him over and prance around a few trees in skimpy attire quickly metamorphosis into humble housewives with high neck blouses and saris draping every inch of their skin.

If the hero doesn’t don the role of a moral police, he then becomes the wastrel. The guy who sits outside the roadside teashop, chats with his friends for a living while blowing up packest of cigarettes, and passes lewd remarks at all women, till the girl of his dreams crosses the road. After this life changing moment, the hero develops a new purpose in life; that of pursuing her relentlessly during the day (while dissing her and the entire womenfolk at night, drinking with friends). He hopes that this persistent pursuit of her will bear fruit eventually. And sadly one day it does. The heroine with absolutely no regard for the hero’s credentials gives up (I presume) and ‘falls in love’ with the wastrel who did nothing but stalk her and disrobe her with his eyes. The way to a woman’s heart seems to be through sexual harassment.

It is very disconcerting to see the spate of Tamil films such as ‘ Oru Kal Oru Kannadi’ ,‘ 7g Rainbow Colony’, ‘Kedi Billa Killadi Ranga’ etc that seem to drive this piece of regressive advice to all roadside Romeos. Apparently they have discovered the secrets of a woman’s mind.

There are only two types of heroines, standing at the opposite ends of the spectrum. She is both talkative (or the over used word- bubbly) and mischievous or she is the shy, docile girl next door. There is the daring Phoolan Devis (who have no morsel of emotion) and the ultra shy village belle. And more recently (thanks to Mr. Gautham Menon), there is also the confused urban-educated girl who frivolously breaks the guy’s heart. The lead characters of both his recent flicks, ‘ ‘Vinnathaandi Varuvaaya ‘and a painful NEP (Neethane En Ponvasantham) depicted the fickle minds of girls. “Oh these women are so cold-hearted. They break our hearts without a thought. Poor us” grieve the protagonists. After conveniently placing the blame on the girl for wrecking the relationship, the ‘heroes’ go on to cutely croon “why this kolaveri di” and it becomes a national obsession with all menfolk claiming that this is “their song”. These films may not glorify men, but they make men hapless victims of broken relationships and hold women and their ‘strange minds’ responsible for everything that goes wrong.


Where are the real heroines? The feminine but driven and bold heroine who challenged society and made her own life has died a premature death with the 1970s, with the films of K. Balachander. Veteran Tamil Director K. Balachander was hailed for being ahead of his times. Its such an irony that the Tamil directors of today, on the other hand are behind their times, doling out crass films in the name of humor and entertainment. Where are the real women? The one who is not coy but not necessarily a rebel either? Movies such as ‘Life in Metro' and the more mainstream and commercial ‘Wake up Sid’, in that respect were a breath of fresh air. In Konkana Sen one saw a more realistic and multifaceted portrayal of the girl next door. A independent woman, who is neither shy nor outspoken, who loves her job, loves to go out for a drink but not always party and most of all is skeptical of all men, but will walk the extra mile for a friendship. Doesn’t she seem like us or a person we know?
(It is however disappointing to see the promos of Ayan Mukherji’s next film. He also seems to have succumbed to the fairytale Bollywood romance- Yeh Jawani Hey Deewani).

So if men directors are busy stereotyping women, does the onus fall on women to showcase a true understanding of the emotions and perspectives of their sex? Watching ‘Arohanam’ a movie by Lakshmy Ramakrishnan, I was left with mixed emotions. While the movie successfully got rid of every archetype associated with women, be it the ‘noble all sacrificing mother’ character or the ‘vindictive stepmother’, it seemed to be unfortunately giving space to another pattern; that women directors only make women-centric films, and that only women directors can.  It took a Gauri Shinde (English Vinglish) to put forth that Indian men must transcend their role of being providers of wealth and comfort and must instead give their spouses respect. It took a film by Revathy (Mitr My Friend) and national award for us to realize the loneliness of housewives. However, most movies that pivot around a woman character are issue-based;rape, female foeticide and dowry harassment. These social evils must be addressed and there is no better platform than cinema to stir one’s conscience but must we relegate and confine a woman role in cinema to merely such representations is a question that needs to be asked.

But the winds of change are hopefully not too far away.  Sujoy Ghosh’s ‘Kahaani’ provided some relief with a Vidya Balan carrying the entire film on her shoulders (or should we say stomach), which apart from the prowess of the lead character also showed that a pregnant woman could be desirable!  A recent Malayalam film titled ‘ 22 F Kottayam’ was extremely disturbing through its stark portrayal of the hundred things that are wrong with the world and that can go wrong with a young girl’s life. It follows the story of a young and ambitious nurse from Kottayam who falls in love with the wrong man, only to realize much later that she was tricked into a bigger plot, and traces her journey of reconciliation and redemption. For the first time we see a soft spoken  ‘regular girl’ and (not a vamp) heroine who isn’t afraid to confess that she isn’t a virgin; the hero and heroine live in together, and perhaps for the first time ever in Indian Cinema, the heroine punishes the hero for his misdeeds by bobbitising him. What is even more heartening is to see one of the leading and upcoming heartthrobs of Malayalam cinema (Fahad Fazil) willingly and very convincingly portraying this role of the anti-hero, who is punished in such a grotesque manner. In a male dominated and chauvinistic industry, where even the heroine verbally abusing the hero is received with disapproving catcalls from the audience, this is a huge step, in the right direction.

 Cinema has never merely been a tool of voyeuristic pleasure or a route for escapism. The socio- cultural impact that it can have on the mindset and behavior of its audience cannot be ignored. Going back to the psychology premise that the human mind for some strange reason (perhaps because its easier being ‘bad’ than good) mimics ‘negative’ behavior more effectively, illustrates the point that its time our films exercised some sensitivity and intelligence in showcasing reality, especially when it concerns women.

The depth of friendship is not known by the length of the acquaintance. The 100 years of Indian cinema doesn’t call for celebration without its women being respected.


* Shift Focus in videography terms refers to shifting focus from an object in the foreground to the background or vice versa. Basically one object, which was in focus or was sharp, becomes blurred and the focus is shifted onto another.